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15 August 2008 @ 01:51 pm

My jobs, my family, my coworkers, and my friends are making it easier for me to adjust to not having Matt around while he is on vacation. I went out with my coworkers after our meeting on Tuesday, and we went to some Irish pub/restaurant to get some drinks and appetizers. Afterwards, I was invited to Nicole's house, where we indulged in wine, beer, and cigars, ahah. Then Stefanie came, joined in the festivities, and walked me to the subway so I could go home.

On Monday, Sofia is taking me out to dinner at some Greek food place in the city, on Tuesday Nicole and I are going shopping, and then Wednesday Matt will be here! I'm so excited for his return. Also, on Thursday, Stefanie is throwing me a party since my internship is ending soon.

Danny's having a birthday party tonight, and I may go, if I feel like being polite to all the people I dislike who will be there. Also, I somehow got sunburnt via a tanning bed, so maybe I won't go simply because my back hurts a lot D:

 
 
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04 August 2008 @ 11:39 am

I will never find what I'm looking for. My expectations in life are too high and will never be met. I am the only one in the whole world who can make myself thoroughly happy, and I am the only one I can count on to get anything done. I wish I could clone myself, slap a penis on said clone, and date ME. Everything in my life is tedious. I am looking into universities in California. Maybe I need a change of scenery.

 
 
26 July 2008 @ 02:48 pm

I just want to curl into a little ball, wrap myself up in a big blanket, and lay there for hours upon end. I need to feel secure, safe, protected, sheltered. I want to be held, but I don't want to be smothered. I don't want to be bothered. Every thing in the world that I want contradicts itself, and I hope that one day I'll understand why I do these things to myself.

I'm trying. That's all anyone can ever ask for. I think it's time I went back on medication. Yes.